Neel: Guess which film I managed to get my hands on. Just guess…
Me: Glass of Rage?
Neel: Yes!
Neel: But no subtitles.
Jonai is typing…
Me: Spot on, huh. Glass of Rage at the film festival in 2001. It was impossible to find! I guess you got it off the Internet, illegally of course.
Neel: Of course.
Me: I know you too well. Too bloody well. J
Neel is typing
Neel: J I don’t know what I should do about that though. There’s such a long trail of heavy destruction behind us. J Putting in way too many smileys but I am not really smiling.
Sent at 12:00 AM on Monday.
Me: ??
Neel is typing
Neel: Just watched this movie called Amu by Jonai productions.:)
Me: Hmmm. It’s a nice movie. How could something called Jonai productions fail ;)
Neel: J
Neel: It’s been three years since we saw each other, ya?
Me: Listen, I have to run. Got work.
Jonai has logged out of chat.
Of all the things that remind me of us everyday — television shows, books, places, names, faces, terrible haircuts, shirts torn at the sleeves — the metro rides are the worst. I still brave the traffic and heat and dust over the metro-compartment time machine.
We’ve spent three years, stuck like an old vinyl LP that has stopped on some random phrase of a song, which suddenly has so much meaning on its own. Hammering the message into your mind with mechanical repetition.
“Darling you got to let me know
Should I stay or should I go?”
i loved the lines off the old vinyl LP the most. a befitting end to the one of really nice posts after a longish wait.
ReplyDeleteThank you, glad you wrote. I suspect not many people are reading the blog anymore.
ReplyDeleteWell, I have just recently joined in
ReplyDeleteHey, my first time on your new blog. Will visit more often now :)
ReplyDeletePS: Loved the last two lines.
I really feel for you if that's your story. Love can be such a burden. I think I'm starting to like carrying it.
ReplyDeleteThe last two lines almost made me smile in recognition:
“Darling you got to let me know
Should I stay or should I go?”
I get to listen a slightly different version of it:
"I don't love you anymore.
What can I do for you (to stay happy)?"